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Insecurity...

I don't know how many of you are aware of the fact that I have been commissioned for arts in the past.

The first two were rather successful, and I felt elated and all that.

Then the third and last one that happened. It failed miserably; miscommunication, matters of financial accountability, and an accusation of harrasment from asking for clarification on those issues burned me deep. Now part of that is my fault (in how much I let it emotionally affect me), but now I'm realizing how bad I have it when it comes to trusting others about money. At all.

A friend has come up to me three times in the recent-ish past, with a proposal for my services on a project of theirs. I'm scared of turning him down; the idea is alluring, I know making business connections are the way to go in this economy... But the terms, they feel like such a gamble to me (and I HATE to gamble, if I can do anything about it.) And money matters can really test a friendship. That's what frightens me most.

I feel like I'm wanting to be naive but my jade glasses on the issue wont come off. And that this proposal keeps reminding me of this weak spot.

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highthorn
Jun. 23rd, 2011 04:17 am (UTC)
I just want to give you huggles and take all your insecurity away... I'm so sorry, honey. <3
artfreak17
Jun. 23rd, 2011 04:21 am (UTC)
Thank you, hon'. I love you so much. *Holds you close.*
duosangel02
Jun. 23rd, 2011 04:36 am (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I probably would have taken it just as hard if I was in your place. Like I said on Twitter, you should do whatever is best for you. If you're uncomfortable with the terms you should talk to your friend, see if you two can't work them out to be better for both of you. And if that can't be done then he should understand why you'd turn him down. (Sorry to act all familiar like, it's just in my nature to try to help people however I can, even if it's giving advice.)
artfreak17
Jun. 23rd, 2011 04:44 am (UTC)
I understand the import of compromise, which is part of the reason the proposal keeps getting left hanging. But every time he flings the salesmen pitch I get all insecure about the whole thing because it reminds me of my trust issues over money.

I thank you though, for the sentiment and desire to help. Someday I'll figure this out.
falconwhitaker
Jun. 23rd, 2011 09:05 am (UTC)
If you feel too uncomfortable doing it, then don't, I say. A true friend will understand and won't push the issue.

If, however, you do want to give it a go, make sure you hash out a decent price together and take half the money up-front and half the money upon completion of services rendered. And don't let them keep the art until you've been paid.
artfreak17
Jun. 23rd, 2011 09:43 am (UTC)
Thank you as well for your input. I have learned something from the old episode that catalyzed such trains of thought,things like the advice you have shared sagely. I thank you as well for all your consideration.
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